Haven't written in a while as usual but i'm back!! had a great weekend with my boyfriend! Partied with friends, which i haven't done in ages!! Saw bourne movie on sunday which was pretty good!! Today i had a meeting with my internship coordinator which also turned out to be good!! I'm really nervous about this internship, but hopefully it all goes well i don't know what to expect!! Hopefully things are starting to look up for me right now. This hasn't exactly been the best summer, but i'm hoping things are about to turn around!!!

another day gone and this job search ain't gettin no better!! Someone commented when i said i might be workin at target soon!! Target is not a bad job, but i didn't get a bachelor of science degree and 4 classes away from my masters in public health degree to work at freakin target!! I didn't have to go to school all these years for that!! In southern california its who you know not what you know..because there's no explanation that i can't get some kind of entry level health job!! And to top it off i'm 27 not 14 soo yes i expect to be able to count on my boyfriend that could soon one day be my husband!! I would have never gotten into a long distance relationship having known he wouldn't be moving down here soon like he said he would, but to say you can't count on your boyfriend so deal with it is not the answer....that sounds like bitter woman talk to me!! I write on here because i'm frustrated with my long distance relationship and i'm even more upset that i can't find a job and i'm broker then i have ever been in my entire life!!! I just wonder how my grandparents would have felt about the decisions that have been made since they past away last year?? Did they ever suspect the family would cut me off like this?? I sure didn't....but money can change people and bring out the worst in them right? Right!! I'm living proof of that!!! Well all i can do is pray that tomorrow goes better then today!!

This is totally sad....my relationship is not getting any better and i'm almost ready to call it quits!! I need someone who is here for me not living in another city doin absolutely nothing!! I'm still looking for a job to no avail. I swear why even go to college i'm almost finished with my masters degree and i swear if i don't find a job i will be working at target!! But is anyone here to console me?? Noo my boyfriend is 2 freakin hours away!! ok i'm done ranting for the day...but let it be known that long distant relationships suck and are for the birds!!!!!